So many of us are in a rush, to do, to get 'somewhere'. We run ahead of ourselves, unable to be here fully now and trust in life's process and timing. The feeling that something is 'wrong' and why haven't I got 'there' yet. But where is 'there' when there is only the here and now of this moment? What if we were to put down our bags, rest and be here now fully present with what 'Is'?
Can we be courageous enough to Be, to trust in the process of Life. To know we are ever-evolving as Love, that Life itself is the Guru, the satsang, the teacher?
I know it sounds cliche, but we are exactly where we are meant to be. What is happening in life is not personal. Nothing is happening to you, it's happening in You, as Consciousness. There is no person 'waking up' in each one, rather Consciousness is awakening through all its forms. To put it simply, there is Reality and there is fantasy... Reality is what is here and fantasy is what the mind thinks about it! So, the invitation to freedom is to rest in the Reality of this moment.
To stop however is to feel. It is to feel whatever it is we may be avoiding in the running ahead of ourselves, to some future moment, dream, desire.... the 'all will be ok when I get there' fantasy. Rarely are we present with what Is. The thinking mind is usually running towards something in the wanting or pulling away from it in fear.
I remember some years ago feel utterly exhausted and the words coming like a call to God, 'can I just stop now?' I had been on the spiritual path for years, the longing to come home was deep, though somehow I felt it was all up to me. I had always known that I was here to serve, but I just thought 'I' had to do it. That I was responsible for moving my life, rather than life moving me. With grace, this was seen (what a relief!), the 'doer' was collapsed and gradually this misunderstanding dissolves more and more in Love, but I sometimes still find myself in doubt, questioning the manifestation....
What I am doing? Am I on the 'right' path? Why does not life look how I’d like it to? It helpful to know that doubt comes to confirm me in my knowing. The deeper knowing is that Life is perfectly scripted for my evolution. That I must meet whatever the experience of discomfort here and the doubts and questions, life's ‘wobbles’, are coming to work me out of those beliefs, to bring me Home. This is the necessary 'cooking', where Love burns the layers of misunderstanding in our system. Our responsibility is to allow it, feel it and embrace it, rather than avoid these uncomfortable moments - the confusion, the difficulty, the worries, the pain... whatever it may be.
We have layers within our layers; each will open and be revealed when ready, like a flower opening to the warmth and light of the sun in alignment with nature’s cycles. We must be willing to allow the flower of awakening to reveal itself in Love’s timing.
May we open and blossom as the unique, beautiful flowers we are and emit our sweet fragrance.
Deep love to you friends xxx
'A tree that does not dance with the wind is a tree that snaps. The strength of the true arrow lies in its capacity to give itself to the 'wobble', to the curve of the feminine. What a birth-day it is when the duo are in divine marriage within.' Sri Saraswathi Ma